Dreaming of the Day.....

They say I didn't love you
They say I didn't care
And that I walked away from you
because I didn't care.
So in their moments of despair
they told you lies
To make me look bad in your eyes.
Nothing is further from the truth!!
They kept you from me from the start
Because with you they could not part.
But everyday that passed us by
My Love, I had to try.
As time went by
heartache set in
with each unanswered call.
The pain I felt because of this
caused me to give in.
Not give up, no not at all
for someday you might get that call.
It never happened and maybe never will
But my love for you will be stronger still.
We each held something over all these years~
You, my love and a piece of my heart,
Me, I held back tears
and the hopes of someday
there would be a brand new start.
I know you don't believe this
but someday you will know
the feelings that I have for you
have done nothing but grow.
I know the truth is painful
but lies are just the same.
And someday you'll feel differently
when you hear my name.
I'll be right here waiting
for that day to come.
Until then love,
strange as this seems
I'll see you in my dreams!

I Love you TM Forever and Always!
1/20/10

NEVER HAVE THE CHANCE

I wrote this as a last conversation with my Dad~~since I



NEVER HAD THE CHANCE

When I was born, I was your first
your pride and joy~~your Little Girl.

We were close and you were there
for me when my life was unfair.

Helping to pick up the pieces
when I thought it was not possible.

Even as I was growing up to become
the woman that I am today
and faced the problems that I had
thrown my way.

You were there to give me whatever
it was that I needed~be it a hug, a smile,
words of encouragement ~~whatever.

As I got older, things just weren’t the same.
To you another family came.

I still had rough times in my life
but my rock was no longer there.

Things happened to drive us apart
which I should have seen from the start.

Your new family needed you
but we needed you too.

I do not blame you for that totally
but I think that you had blinders put on.

Please don’t take that wrong
But I saw it coming all along.

At one point in time
I needed your help~

I will say this you gave it to me
in more ways than one.

Again, I do not fully put you at blame.
You could have stopped it all the same.

I am not trying to put you down
because you are no longer around.

I guess I feel the need to speak my peace
since I never had the chance.

It kills me to know that I
never will.

So many things there were to say
that I hoped would happen another day.

And now that day will never come
and I am left to carry on.

I carry the burden with me
that it could have been done differently.

We could have talked and worked it out
But now we can’t without a doubt.

Deep in my heart I know
that you are with me wherever I go.

It could have been different if we only
had the chance.

I Love You Daddy and Miss You. You left us so fast that I never had a chance to say Goodbye.

My advice to others~~do not hold grudges and run away.

Do not wait for another day because like for me
that day may not come and you may NEVER HAVE THE CHANCE!


Written by Shawn 3/3/2008